| new one.
find it yourself.
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| fucking fucked up.
allllll weekend.
i love charlotte.
i made out with nick.
i promise i'm stopping
after this time tonight.
by the way, i wish
that everyone could
just sit around and
listen to le tigre.
the old shit.
like, decptacon,
and the the empty,
and we could laugh
at how fucking
outrageous they are.
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| i hate the flu.
and i hate feeling lonely.
i stopped caring about this whole situation, and it feels kind of good.
i want everyone to be happy, and that's how it's looking as of now.
i want a boyfriend so i can copy the way he talks.
like kelsey and jordan, it's cute.
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| i've seriously never dreaded every single aspect of my life like this.
everything is so bad.
especially my grades, which i realize were shit, but
a) it's an interm, and
b)i had to go to a funeral before the grades could be fixed/changed.
so i'm getting all of my priveleges (at anthony's house, my mom understands) taken away (i.e. YES, MY PHONE!) until i "get a list of all my my missing assignments and which ones i turn in", and all of my grades are back up.
which i can't take care of tomorrow, because i have no regular classes, so, this is going to be a miserable long weekend.
no people, no form of communication.
my cat's dying. maybe you hate cats. maybe you don't think it's a big deal. but to me, it is, i love that cat more than some PEOPLE in my life, and it's making me miserable.
boys, let's not even go there. LACKING.
friends, charlotte and i made up, that's good, but i'm beginning to feel anti-social again, and i fear that i will be neglecting all of my friends very soon.
my relationship with my dad (oh, excuse me, ANTHONY) is slowly deteriorating. i don't want to compete for his affection anymore. i don't even care about myself enough.
to be completely honest, my mother is the only thing keeping me alive right now.
i don't know whether that's fourtionate or the lesser of the two.
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